" I just want to create beautiful things, even if nobody cares. "
I believe whole heartedly that every person is born a wellspring of creativity, life, authenticity, and love. Our innocence makes us ever so curious, and as we grow, we learn what our soul craves. Last year at university, I sat drawing sunflowers on the notes I meant to be taking in one of my many design classes. My professor, carrying on with a lecture on the psychology of color, suddenly grasped my attention with the truth he spoke. It went something like this,
"There is nothing in this world that will satisfy us. We were created as infinite beings, meant for a heavenly realm. As human beings, we crave an eternal reality. We were called to be in this world, but not a part of it. We were made for much greater things. As artists, we take after our Father. He who sculpts the mountain ranges, and He who paints the sky: each sunset, each sunrise. From dawn until dusk, and all through our days, and all through our nights, His creation is evident in everything around us, and even in ourselves. We are children of our Creator God, and we were created to create."
I think about these words. Not only do I think, but I am awakened by their pure intelligence. If you are an artist yourself, you will understand this craving that I am illustrating. It is as though there is a galaxy of constellations inside of me, and I must unleash their brilliance at every possible moment. It is not a choice. I must. I must. This is the struggle and beauty of an artist.
"It is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply."
I have come to find the greatest satisfaction, joy, and truth in knowing that creating brings me closer to my own soul, and closer to the majestic Creator who crafted me. It is brilliant to know that my creations are not for me, or even for those around me. It is the most beautiful thing in the world to know that what I create is not for you and me, but for eternity.
Photographed by Sarah Olfelt.